My God...

is GLORIOUS and BEAUTIFUL!

His love is better than life, as a deer pants for water, so my soul LONGS for Him. Nothing in this entire world matters.. but Him!

A Jumble of Thoughts

I am certainly not good at time management, prioritizing or being proactive. These are things that the Lord has been working on in me for quite a while.. I think that the biggest and most important lesson I have learned from my Teacher in all of this is that surrendering to Him is the first and most important step. I admit, I am not good at this yet, but I certainly is SO, SO VITAL. I am no longer my own, and neither is my time.

I have about 4 more days left in my break, then it is back to school and classes and possibly a job. I'm excited! I miss people from my classes and miss mostly, the kiddies. (This semester I am going to be placed in a school age classroom, which is a little intimidating, but oh-so-exciting!) I just want to pray for His glorious will in ALL of this... In Jesus' Name!

So because I only have a few more days left, I am working on cleaning and organizing all my stuff. I have gotten to where I do this every time I have a fairly big break. It really helps because during the in-between times, things pile up and usually get jumbled. And in this ongoing process of Christ conforming me to His image, each semester starts and I look to learn more and more how to work for Him (Col 3:23-24) and do everything in His name. I JUST want to make Him smile and please Him! He is my Abba, Daddy, I want to make Him proud! This semester is going to be so great! It is the last one before I graduate with my Associate's degree and Oh Jesus, I just want to make you smile! Oh man!

This break has been fast, but oh so great! He has really blessed my time. Dad, mom, sis and me have gotten to spend a lot of much needed time together which is AWESOME =) With Dad's busy job and Sis living in LC... we needed this time together, face-to-face. Technology is good, but good ol' conversation while looking straight at the other people is so much better. I'd also admit that I got a lot of rest this break... the down side is that in that process, I easily fell back into the staying up late thing... makes it hard to be the early bird that I long to be! But again, back to Psalm 127:1 and 2-in VAIN you stay up late and rise early.... if I am TOILING FOR FOOD (or toiling for something) it is in vain.

So enough with me! The Lord is good, He is holy, His name is Immanuel-God with us! Amen Jesus! Thank you for loving this wretched sinner... You are beautiful!

Scripture Memory

Hello!

I had found Beth Moore's ministry blog a while back... but during Thanksgiving Break I took up reading over all the old posts as well as any they post currently. I love them! They bless my soul and the Lord really speaks to me through what they have posted about. :) So, through this blog, they have developed a big community of women who are supporting and uplifting each other in Christ's name! Which is awesome of course! :) Beth fondly calls them, "Siestas." You can read about all of this at the blog site which is on the side bar of my blog (LPM Blog). Anyways, this past year, 2009, they did a Scripture Memory challenge. All of the women would log on and post what verse they were going to memorize every 2 weeks, on every 1st and 15th of each month. They prayed for each other and supported each other. So by the end of the year (yesterday!) they memorized about 24 verses give or take! I found this time line-2 weeks at a time- and Beth's approach to memorization (RENEW) very refreshing, honest, and effective. So, I started my own 2-week-at-a-time memorization adventure on December 1, 2009. My first verse was 2 Timothy 2:7-"For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline." This verse gives me victory in Christ! On the 15th, I decided to spend the next few weeks and go over all the past memory verses/passages I had memorized in the past, a few years ago. Going through my bible and just from a brainstorm, I came up with about 22 verses that I had memorized a while back. I took on this many because in theory, I had already memorized them, at least by rote.. So going over them should just be a refreshment. Being Christmas and all, I honestly only went over them a few times and have not yet dug deep into each one, so I am going to spend this next 2 weeks on them again. It's been great to just purposefully get into memorizing His Word. "I have hidden your Word in my heart that I might not sin against you." =)

I don't know if the "Siestas" are going to be doing the memory verses again for 2010, but if they do I am going to join them!

:)

2010

I have created numerous blogs in the past... and I either never wrote or I felt a little silly because I was sure that nobody read it. This time around, I decided to create one and post when I feel I should share something. This may end up being often or hardly ever... either way I sincerely want it to all be for His glory! And if it blesses someone, then that is all I care. So whether I know if anyone is reading or not, I will leave it up just so that perhaps one person may stumble onto the page and hopefully, see Him!

This brings me to right now... it is nearly 11:30 P.M. on December 31, 2009. I am here at my computer, alone with my King. It is EXACTLY where I want to be! I am listening to Isa Couvertier, Misty Edwards, Kari Jobe, Bethany Dillon and Kim Walker. =) Beautiful! I truly want my life to please Him, make Him smile as wide as the east is from the west. Day in and day out, my life is His even when I am living like it isn't. I've had a lot on my mind these past few weeks, as well as tonight as 2010 is approaching. It all comes down to this-Psalm 127:1 & 2 says:

"Unless the Lord builds the house,

its builders labor in vain.

Unless the Lord watches over the city,

the watchmen stand guard in vain.

In vain you rise early

and stay up late,

toiling for food to eat-

for He grants sleep to those He loves.

These verses have convicted me and taught me so much this past month or so. My wonderful friend and sister who is discipling me showed me this passage. The Lord convicted me! This is my life! I take on so much sometimes, and other times, not enough. No matter how busy, I never have been good at using my time well. So my "solution" has been (countless times) to stay up late and get up early. "If I just do that, I will have more time!" But the truth is, it never helps. The bottom line comes down to...I am not being a good steward of the blessed time He is giving me each and every day. I usually am investing in POINTLESS, FRUITLESS, and even DESTRUCTIVE things. So through these verses, the Lord has given me wisdom in making decisions about what I will invest in. Amen! Thank you Lord! So as this new year comes, and just as tomorrow comes, I want only to build the house that He is building! Lord let it be so! And I want to use my time so wisely, He made the number of minutes and hours in each day, so I know that it is not mine to try to manipulate. I am just to follow His Spirit and do all in the name of Jesus! And praise Him, I can ONLY do this in His strength! On my own (as I've tried in the past) is a total loss, it always, always, always ends in failure. I NEED HIM. Period.

So the few different things that I have on my mind that I need to make decisions about, I am praying Psalm 127:1&2 over them. May it only be His. There are a couple different people that have been ministering to me over this past year or two and I am just so, so THANKFUL for them! There is NO denying that my God is sovereign and mighty! How else would all of these people, who do not know each other, totally different platforms and motives all speak the same things to my yearning heart? Because it is HIM teaching me. =) Thank you Jesus, I am u.n.w.o.r.t.h.y. It is Jesus Christ being my King, my God, my Teacher, my Father, my Love!

Praise be only to Him, I am nothing, He is mighty.

Happy New Year :)