Sometimes my Lord overwhelms my heart, my mind, and my soul....and even my body...so intensely that I feel like I might just explode! Into praise? Into song? Into a poem? I feel like so many words need to be expressed but I have no idea where to begin. I just know that He is FAITHFUL!!! Amazingly, wonderfully, warmly, cozily faithful! I am so psycho....totally unfaithful, inconsistent, chaotic, zooming a million miles an hour....and my God is there, totally calm, loving, understanding, loving, safe..holding me ever so tenderly, keeping me from totally going insane. I cannot explain this very well but just understand that His love is unchanging & irreplaceable! He has stolen my heart with just one glance of His eyes!

So many things have happened, are happening now. So many changes, new chapters in this "book of my life", difficulties, victories, bad choices, good choices... Yet He is the Author! The One who is scripting this story that has been written since before I was formed in the secret place. The One who makes my bad choices into good for His glory & holy purposes!

The one thing I want is to LOVE Him! I want to forsake all things of this world to KNOW Him, to WORSHIP Him, to HONOR Him! I'm horrible at it. But He continuously (without any waver whatsoever) loves me & accepts my filthy-as-rags attempts to be a lover of God! The thing I often forget is that I am no longer my own....I have been bought at a price and although my love is so so very imperfect, He lives in me, His Spirit teaches me how to love Him well! What He wants is surrender & not perfection. Trust not self-trust.

John 15:5-apart from me, you can do NOTHING.

His love is pure beauty, bliss, paradise, everything sacred, holy purity, the center of every God-made passion, my hope, my life...